Ordience of Silence (Shinigami Only)

[wanzer]

Benzaiten walked out of the Squad nine barracks along with the rest of his squad, lead by their captain, who was accompined by their Vice-Captain. Everyone was dressed in long white dress robes and each was caring a single candle as they moved along in a silent train down the long narrow passes that made up the soul society. As the this long train made its way up to Soukyoku Hill it was met by eleven other trains one for each division except for one, all dressed in a similar way and every person holding a single white candle. The precession moved carefully up the hill and soon everyone was standing around it or on it with the Commander General standing in front of them all dressed in a slightly more expensive robe, with his squad standing behind him and wrapped around the Soukyoku and the execution stand. There was silence as everyone took in the grim scene.

In front of Squad one were a multitude of coffins with pictures in front of each one and a large array of flowers for each. Today was the day of remembering and the last conflict had taken many from the shinigami. Benzaiten shook quietly as he looked upon the hundreds of coffins that laid before everyone, each was a victum of the recent raid on Hueco Mundo and Benzaiten was ashamed to say he hadn't been a part of that assult, letting a few tears fall for the people he didn't know, he listened intently as the Commander General began a small service to remember the Shinigami that had fallen in battle. Benzaiten was shuddered as he listened and wondered if anyone here felt like he did, so weak and powerless and so worthless because of his failure to act. He could have saved one or two of them maybe, he could have done something to keep them from dying, but instead he had stayed behind and they paid the price for his cowardly ways.

There was a small hand clasping his shoulder and he noticed a member of squad four was reassuring him, probably by orders of the captain. He nodded thankfully and let the young woman be on her way, before he looked back up to the Commander General and listened to his speech.

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[Galihan]

Weak. Powerless. Worthlessness. Ha, as if anybody here could truly say that they were able to feel such a deep empty void that those words brought out than the young man who stood there, head drooped town letting his light brown hair cover his face. Every single memorial honoring the sacrifice of a brave shinigami was a reminder to the impossible debt that had to be repaid to Soul Society, a burden that would haunt Takeshi for a very long time. Every single person here would be alive if it weren't for him and his weakness, his powerlessness and worthlessness, his inability to stand up for himself. He had to be here, and he had to repay these people's sacrifice with his own life, everything Soul Society had lost, Takeshi had to make up for if he ever wanted to consider the right to be alive when all these people had died just to save him.

The words of the Commander General were touching and inspiring, but no matter how much they brought hope to those who lived through that day or even were absent and wished to make a difference, it was all bullshit. Takeshi didn't really even want to be here, but the thought of what if he didn't was to disgraceful to consider. A disgrace to himself, to Squad Ten, to the entire Gotei 13. After the attack on Hueco Mundo, hundreds of gifted shinigami died, and all it gained out of it was the chance for Takeshi to serve as one himself. It was really painful to think of, and he wouldn't bear the guilt anymore, he waited for what seemed to be like hours of standing, surrounded by he mourning souls of the fallen. Most people here wouldn't even recognize Takeshi as the person who was rescued from Hueco Mundo and hopefully that would remain unless someone decided to mention that, hopefully not however. Takeshi did not want to be recognized as a scapegoat for this, and would only repay his debt in battle against hollows. He would vow that for every shinigami being remembered today, ten hollows would be slain by his zanpakuto in payment for their sacrifice.

After the congressional speech by the Commander General, the squads were granted permission to wander freely upon the Sokyoku hill and pay their respects. Takeshi decided to approach every single memorial one last time, paying his final respects. He made eye contact with the Commander General himself, who would probably have been able to sense the deep guilt within Takeshi's soul but could do nothing to ease the young man of his sorrows. He simply approached Captain Saigotschuu and told him he intended to make his leave, and to apologize to Commander General Irashi on his behalf. As Takeshi began leaving, he made sure to try and not making himself to noticeable or to stand out, but a single person walking away would always be noticed. He simply wished that nobody would make a scene about him, if anyone tried confronting him about being disrespectful or inconsiderate to these fallen, Takeshi would have no choice but to uphold what was left of his tattered honor.