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Post by kensei on Jun 24, 2010 21:27:28 GMT -4
Taza nodded before saying. ”That is all true. But me and Sojukin are leaving now Mekio.” He said before following the orbs that where there to lead them out of the forest.
Meiko shook he head before saying. “I don’t know what I want to do! I need time to think about it. Ill contact one of you later, or stay rouge..” She said before walking away..
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Post by Wanzer on Jun 27, 2010 0:27:05 GMT -4
Sojukin's eyes turned back to Taza as the man moved towards him, he pushed his hand forward stopping him as his mouth went level with the dos espada's ear. The wind stopped blowing for a moment, the moment Sojukin had waited for to add to the effect of what he was about to say next. He sighed for a moment, then began to speak slowly and carefully.
"You sure about this Taza, this may be your last chance to see her before we end up killing her. If I were you I would savor the moment and try to convince her to come with us, because I can guarentee you Reina is going to sink her claws into her the moment we leave and you won't ever get her back. So just think carefully before we move on Taza, because what you just said seemed pretty damn cold especially to someone in her current state.
Sojukin spoke from experience in the situation as he leaned backwards and stared down toward the three female hollows.
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Post by Darkoda on Jul 5, 2010 22:36:23 GMT -4
"That was cold...." Berri muttered as the arrancar walked away. She could kind of understand now why those two annoyed Reina so much now, but.....
Reina, you really aren't much better than them at times...... It was probably not best that she say that out loud, not yet anyway.
"Hey! Stop using my wind for dramatic effect!" Reina didn't know what Sojukin was whispering, nor did she care - she would have turned the gale back on, but that would make things more dramatic.
"Anyway, if you ever want to talk, I'm always available. And you don't have to worry about me trying to kill you if you decline either." Well as long as she didn't try to attack her or her friends, but that was common sense, and Reina saw no need to mention that. "Even if you don't join, we could at least be friends perhaps?"
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Post by kensei on Jul 5, 2010 22:57:56 GMT -4
Taza nodded before turning his head back towards Meiko. ”Meiko.. I would very much like it if you did join me.. The horror vacui will most likely start expanding soon, they aren’t going to stop with the arrancar. They are up to something, but if you come with me then I’ll make sure nothing happens to you.. Its been nearly 3000 years. I know we don’t really know eachother anymore, but I would like to get to know you once again..” Taza knew she would most likely not come, but he had cared for her once upon a time. She was once his family, like a little sister he took care of and lost.. But he also knew that his life wasn’t going to be around a lot longer most likely. He planned everyday his movement against Death and the Horror Vacui. His life was not something secure anymore. And for that he almost wished that she wouldn’t accept and would just leave him and never know the pain of losing a loved one.. Regardless he looked back at Sojukin and whispered. ”Thanks.”
Meiko sighed as she listened to both Taza and Reina.. ”I don’t know Taza.. Just let me go back and drink and think alright? I need some sake. And of course we can be friends miss reina. ” Taza looked back at meiko before saying. ”At the very least, can you send me some of that Sake? That was damn good stuff.” Meiko rolled her eyes as she just left.
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Post by Wanzer on Jul 5, 2010 23:12:22 GMT -4
Sojukin watched as Taza walked away and just nodded to him. "Your welcome, you go on ahead I've got some conversations to carry on with Reina for a moment." Sojukin watched the dejected Espada walk through the forest before approaching Reina and Berri once more and crossing his arms for a moment as he watched Mekio head toward her cave and Taza back to Hueco Mundo. He waited for a moment as he rubbed the back of his head and looked at the pair of female hollows.
"Well, that could have gone better in any event." Sojukin eyes rolled as he thought about the last thing that Taza said to Mekio.
"I think you have it right, Taza is an idiot...if he didn't have the strength to back up his mouth...I'm pretty sure he'd be dead by now." The psychoatic arrancar was relaxed now, speaking normally if but for the moment and attempting to carry on a decent conversation while he had the chance. It wasn't often he actually ran into Reina or anyone else that he had previously fought. He assumed that anyone that fought shared a certain bond. Maybe that was wrong of him to think that, maybe it wasn't but right now he needed to get something off of his chest.
"Berri? Can I ask you to excuse me and Reina for a moment? I'd rather this be confidental."
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Post by Darkoda on Jul 5, 2010 23:30:55 GMT -4
"Bye Mekio!" Reina waved at the retreating hollow energetically, as Berri kept an eye on the approaching Sojukin. Not that Reina wasn't aware of it, but really, it was Sojukin. Taza's the one she would gut for coming near her. Sojukin might actually have something worth saying. Maybe.
"Of course he's an idiot. A really strong idiot, but still." Finally, someone else finally noticed that the drunkard was retarded! Or more likely, noticed and was willing to say it out loud around her, it wasn't like she hung out with arrancar on a regular basis. The act of actually talking to one for so long without trying to kill them...this was quite new. Especially seeing as she actually did try to kill him before, no matter how much they both half-assed things.
"Berri, could you head back for a moment? I'm actually interested in this now."
"Do you promise not to try to kill each other?"
".......Maybe."
Berri sighed, knowing that was the best she was going to get, and walked into the forest to wait for Reina to show up/stop any acts of excessive violence. What counted as excessive violence for those two though? Hmm......
"Okay Sojukin, what do you want? I'm still not sleeping with you by the way; you're still not my type."
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Post by kensei on Jul 5, 2010 23:59:00 GMT -4
Taza walked along the forest, his mind filled with flashes of the past. He was to busy to care about what was about to happen between Reina and Sojukin, let them make love or fight till one of there’s death.. Sadness filled his heart and mind as he remembered the mutilated bodies of his friends that died at the hands of the Horror Vacui, his new masters.. The whole in his chest burned as his mind remembered the cero Death used to widen it permanently. Meiko was hardly a flash on the wall of his life. A hundred years or maybe even less. Six thousand years he had lived, over four thousand of that was spent trying to grabs Death’s shadow and bring him down. He had never been close to it. He had toyed with Taza’s life for thousands of years, even if Death barely remembered him.. Taza knew him all to well..
Eventually he got out of the forest and proceeded to Los Noches. He sighed as he entered his room and grabbed a bottle of Sake. And so he drunk, and drunk. His mind became clouded as he threw his fifth bottle down and stumbled out of the room. Where was Sojukin??? He needed to kick someone’s ass..
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Post by Wanzer on Jul 6, 2010 0:16:51 GMT -4
Sojukin looked back and made sure Taza was long gone and sighed for a moment as he crotched down took a clod of dirt in his hand and judged it for a moment. He examined it, prodded it and just held it for a moment before looking back up at Reina and standing up back up holding it out to her. His eyes were set coldly as he began to speak.
"Do you know what this is Reina? I know you are going to say it's just a hunk of dirt, but before you say that I want you to think about what this little hunk of dirt represents to every hollow and Arrancar on Hueco Mundo." Sojukin's eyes clouded over for moment as he looked toward the forest and sighed deeply as dropped the solid chunk of rock to the ground and looked around at the forest for moment. His back turned to Reina, he let his hand touch the hilt of his blade then let his head lean back and look at her for a moment.
"This place....could be so beautiful." Sojukin said back to her after a few more moments of silence and reached down to touch another patch of sand. "I've seen such much white in my life...the sands of this place...it's trees. All of it could be so much more than this white, bull shit we've been feed all our damn lives!" Sojukin glassed the area around him in a burst of reitsu as he fumed about the situation he was in. He groaned for a moment and let out and chain of swears as he began to look like a junky and scratched his arm repeatedly. If Reina didn't know him any better she would swear he was having withdraws, but she knew this was just part of him...part of his insanity after digesting so many hollows and making them a part of him. He argued with himself over this and how many personas had to be repressed but he had gotten good results out it. He had grown stronger and strength was what he needed. He stopped, the scratching of his arm stopped and he started back at Reina for a moment.
"Reina, I need to be stronger...." He finally said as he looked at her and closed his eyes feeling a breeze brush past him. It was hot, so hot....he hated it...he hated everything that had to do with fire...he hated himself even in that one moments because in that moment of clarity he knew he was not beautiful, he was not the perfection that his mind had so solemnly set himself on. No, he was nothing, he was drenched in Death's shadow like everyone else and where power was king and made some beautiful. So long as Death was around Sojukin might as well have been a troll. He felt tears sting at his eyes and he blinked them away rapidly and laughed.
"Ha, look at me here weeping in front of a woman and telling her my woes and my dreams." He stopped for a moment and looked back out into the forest again.
"I just want to make this place a paradise..................................." He was silent after that.
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Post by Darkoda on Jul 6, 2010 2:28:22 GMT -4
Reina was getting somewhat used to Sojukin making sense, although it was still more or less a new experience for her. So when he asked about the philosophical meaning of the dirt of hueco mundo, she actually thought about a decent answer. She knew what it meant to her, and since she wasn't about to start caring about what Sojukin thought of her, she went with that.
"It represents monotony." That was how she saw it more or less, the frightful monotony of life in the endless desert. Once you actually got past the fight for your individuality stage, things got boring fast. That was pretty much why she went through the trouble of making her own little organisation; she just wanted company to help lessen the effect of an endless existence staring at very crappy scenery. Then Sojukin continued to talk, with his spastic craziness sprinkled through, but that wasn't what had Reina speechless right now - really, she was used to that, it was almost a comfort that he was still crazy right now - but it was his dream.
"I can't believe it.......we actually agree on something important." What the hell was wrong with the world today?! Did she hit her head hard on something and was suffering from a concussion induced nightmare?! Those things were nasty, the last time it happened she dreamed that she liked Taza. She still shuddered when the images of that dream haunted her....she was curled up around Neferi for hours after that.
"A paradise.....at the core, that's what most hollow who get past the need to consume constantly want, a paradise. The problem is the conflict of interest when different ideals clash....... the most you can get is your own private happiness if you have enough power to force the issue......."
Damn, Sojukin was making her think deeply! This was certainly going in the records of the most screwed up day of the century.
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Post by Wanzer on Jul 6, 2010 18:38:09 GMT -4
"This world is little more than a reminder of the cage that we've been strapped into ever since our death as humans...or maybe even before that. It's a reminder of the infinite prison cycle that awaits us if we don't break free eventually or unless we are really wicked at which point we insight the tortures of hell." He grew silent again and looked out at the world around him once more took a peddle from the ground and crushed it in his hand letting the white powder fall back to once it came. His eyes shifted back to Reina as he leaned back against one of the 'trees' surrounding him.
"Consuming....consumation, to consume....It's all hollows seem to be good for, but the more we consume the stronger we become and the stronger we become the more we must consume to grow stronger, but eventually the dominant conscience becomes strained." Sojukin was holding up his left hand in demonstration of the process as a flame grew in it and began to consume the air around it and some of the sand that had been caked there.
"However, the issue with it is that as you said most hollows want to make this place a paradise, to do so one has to be strong enough to resist the natural order around here." Sojukin held up his right hand in demonstration creating a replica of Earth out of his reitsu. "Now then, lets say one gets strong enough to resist the natural order and break free of the chain of death and rebirth? By that point, they would have had to consume so many hollows that a second conciousness or persona could be created with them and branch away thus leaving the main body with less power than normal." The fire in Sojukin's left hand split into two flames to illistrate the point.
"Let's make the assumation that this doesn't happen and instead a hollow breaks free with no subsiquient source of drain on his or her power." The fire flared up as the two became one once more. He looked at her intently for a moment before bringing the hands closure together.
"That much power is all consuming...to be able to lay a claim to breaking the natural chain of things and to have survived that long...you become like Death. They exist on a plane all their own and what need would they have to fix what is already there when they can simply forge out their own paradise exclusive for those around them. Instead of making it a paradise, the continue to consume off of what already is and make it worse." Sojukin's hands slammed together and the Earth erupted into a ball of fire before vanishing. A sigh escaped the espada's lips as he slumped to the ground bringing his hands about his knees as he sat there with his head down.
"I do the best I can with this place and dye it red with the blood of my enemies from time to time and reshape the land with my fires, but...all I can do is destory and consume. No matter how hard I work at making this place beautiful or bringing it closer to a paradise. I can not sculpt out mountians and valleys, I can not form rivers, I can't even get out of the shadow of Los Noches with out be reminded of how weak I am in comparsion to the Horror Vacai!" Sojukin fist crashed into the sand once more as rage fluttered in his eyes and he looked around him. White, everything was white, the color of pain and light fused into one spiral of insanity about him and the entire world seemed to be upside down for a moment as he could hear the voices in his head. They were faint as they always were, but the sound was growing louder now...what was it....
"Laughter...." He muttered to himself as his face twisted into a sick grin making the edges of his mouth heart as it grew wider and more mask like. "Kee...keeheekeheheehehe, whats so damn funny!? Keehehehehehehe, are you laughing at me damnit?" Just a normal fight for him, but he had never laughed before during them, it felt out of place wrong some how for his body to begin laughing so suddenly. No, he was the domainate one, not the ones inside of him. His reitsu flared up a multitude of colors as his emotions twisted grew more unstable and his head pounded with the infuriating laughter, then weeping, then silence. He stopped, swayed lightly on his feet for a moment and sat back down, it had subsided for now.
"When I reach that pinnicle....I will see to it that every last thing that I consumed...dies again."
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Post by Darkoda on Jul 10, 2010 19:58:52 GMT -4
Reina listened to Sojukin’s speech of sanity and power, actually paying enough attention to pick out some details about Sojukin. This talk about a second persona sounded like something he had fore-knowledge of, and while Reina had never experienced any trouble with any of the souls she had consumed, arrancar were not supposed to keep doing that. Maybe….
“Sojukin, could it possibly be that your……well lack of logic is due to you going around eating hollows? Generally, tearing off your mask halts power gains from consuming souls, or at least lowers the power gain to the point that simple training becomes more efficient. It could be that the process of arrancarization makes it unadvisable to keep consuming.”
That would explain a lot of Sojukin’s randomness. And here she thought that he was just normal crazy, instead of actually having multiple personalities competing in him. If that was the case though, which one was the real Sojukin? That might be something to tackle later; if she found a sane person in there, the guy could actually not be so infuriating.
“That said, you are correct about the effect having too much power. Most people would be fully corrupted by that kind of power on their hands, either that, or simply get completely bored and laze about by themselves, looking around for people who amuse them. No matter how nice and reasonable you were before, you can never tell how you would handle power until you get it.”
“Oh, and what do you mean make sure everything you consume dies again? That sounded just weird.”
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Post by Wanzer on Jul 10, 2010 22:33:26 GMT -4
"How would you feel if you had been locked inside another persons body or in a cage for the better part of your life. What if you were only in there for one simple mistake in battle or being at the wrong place at the wrong time. When the time come. When I become powerful enough to make this place a paradise and do so; I will release from my body all those who have been devoured and those that wish to run may run and those that wish to fight may fight. I will obliterate those that fight me and lay their souls and possibly mine as well to rest. Once I'm finished with that, let those that ran do as they would to the paradise I created and flourish under what I had created. I do not expect worship as a God or to be made a deity, but I expect that eventually a new breed of hollow will be created. Maybe something that all of us could look down on and be proud of."
Sojukin looked back up at Reina as the throbbing in his head increased and he looked at her for a moment with his eyebrow raised about the consumption of hollows. He thought about it and just shrugged in reply.
"It's possible, but for the most part there is really no way to know. I've seen hollows that are the same way I am, at a point in any consumption chain it's possible that another identity will begin to create itself inside of you. If you find a Vasto Lorde by the name of Levitherith you'll find he has a similar problem that I have. He is unreasonably powerful in himself, but he can barely move due to all the conflict inside of him, his mind has long since shattered and his psyche broken by the number of personalities that have come from his insides, but the scary part is. He knows it and he doesn’t care. He has the strength he needs to stay alive so he just lets them bicker and sleeps soundly in some cave.”
Sojukin said that and sighed looking back toward Las Noches as his head's throbbing increased further and he could feel something trying to get out. He had enough for this bull shit, the reitsu around him flared in a giant red cloud as his own eyes burned from the heat. He turned his blade on himself stabbing himself in the midsection as the voices scream in unison for him to quit.
"I am Sojukin Asamoto, not some bitch for disembodied voices to mess with! You have driven me to insanity and no longer will you harness my power to your own needs. You exist inside of me, so from now on you will act like it!"
The blade pierced him and his own reitsu flew inside of his body, flew through his very essence and core and brought those inside of him to their knees in agony. The pain for him was nearly to much but, he bore it and took it for that one moment before removing the blade and caulderizing the wound to ensure there was no bleed out. Afterwards, he quietly sheathed his blade and hummed to himself.
"I'm happy again, because the voices in my head have gone again. Oh I'm happy again."
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Post by Darkoda on Jul 11, 2010 1:24:03 GMT -4
“Hello, hollow here. I went through that, and I simply broke all the other souls enough that they have no consciousness worth mentioning. If I end up dying, they’ll get loose and reincarnate, till then, they get to sleep and stay out of my way. Personally, I also question what you would call a paradise, but that would be an agree to disagree moment, so it’s not worth getting into when we’re actually getting along for once.”
She wasn’t dealing with any disembodied voices annoying her; they had medication for that in the living world, and if Sojukin kept bugging her with it, she would take some and force it down his throat. Thinking about it, she should go do that now while he was reasonable, and she wouldn’t have to drag him there; that would be a bothersome prospect, and she would quite frankly get distracted and just fight him for the hell of it.
His knowledge about a vasto lorde with that problem though….hmm, that was problematic, it wasn’t n arrancar thing. So, what was the problem? Maybe she could go ask Neferi about it…..anyway, back to the main point here.
“Maybe you guys just had multiple personality disorder? And why are you stabbing yourself? Suicide is a cowardly way out, at least let me do it. I’ll make it messy.” She didn’t want to miss out on a kill Sojukin party, and definitely not to himself. He seemed to be fine afterwards, but then he went crazy again.
“No,no! Where’s slightly sane Sojukin! Bring back the sane one!” She whipped out a giant silver mallet, holding it high. “I’m going to bop you till you get sane again, now hold still.” She said this with a perfectly straight tone, even though she was grinning up a storm underneath that mask.
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Post by Wanzer on Jul 11, 2010 21:57:41 GMT -4
Sojukin's eyes turned back to Reina as she raised the hammer and just smiled at her as he closed in the space quickly speaking to her as he came. Everything about him was calm now, collected and very much in control of himself. The voices inside of his head were quiet and he stopped humming realizing why Reina had brought out the hammer and was about to smack him.
"Please don't, I'm perfectly fine now. Reina, my intent was never to kill myself...it was simply to quiet the voices down for a moment. The beasties inside of me are of course in my guts for the most part so a concentrated blast of reitsu to that area will silence them. Most can't stand it and will die immediately and go silent forever from there. Only the strong ones are left and I can silence them at times. Reina please lower the hammer...I have no desire to fight you right now."
Sojukin's hand had gone over hers attempting to ease the hammer to the ground. Sojukin didn't feel right like this however almost as if he wasn't whole without all the voices there and the desire to kill and to continue killing to fulfill his dreams. He let a small sigh escape his lips before he responded to Reina's other question carefully while his heart thundered in his chest. Thump, thump, thud...Was all he could hear from it, it was odd, it had been a long time since he had ever gotten a rouse out of it. He had figured it had rotted away with the rest of him long ago in his hollow state and the other beings inside of him. He chuckled at that realizing that, the mindless psychopath that everyone thought he was actually had a heart.
"Reina, my paradise for this place would to be to turn it into the oasis of the universe. I want to mold this place to have lush green hills and actual flowering trees and gardens and orchirds. I want there to be water all around, beaches, lakes and ponds and rivers around here. I want to carve mountains and valleys about this place to break the unending flatness and to place different creatures on this world more magnificant than any on Earth. When I'm done, I want to look out and see that everything is good and lay myself to rest so that the other hollows might not follow the example that I set forth in my life."
He said this all quietly beside her as he continued to try to get her to lower her hammer down.
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Post by Darkoda on Jul 21, 2010 0:10:32 GMT -4
Reina stared into Sojukin's eyes, as he tried to convince her that he wasn't that crazy again. She generally considered stabbing yourself to not be very wise, but whatever rocked his boat; if a bunch of voices were annoying her and that silenced them, she would likely do the same thing at some point. Still, she wanted to clobber him for a different reason now.....
"That's fine Sojukin, now could you please let me go? Seriously I'm going to punch you soon if you don't" She did at least let her giant hammer vanish. At this point, it registered to her that she was actually giving him a choice, instead of just punching him off like she would normally do. Odd.....she couldn't be starting to actually....tolerate him could she?! Sheesh, what was next, actually liking the guy? This was more proof that something was seriously wrong with this day.
"I see; well that actually sounds nice, although I really don't know how it's happening, unless you know someone who can rewrite reality to make plants and water form from a desert...and you raise a good point, one would think that we would have at least valleys and gorges with the mount of craters we make....where does so much sand come from to fill in those gaps?"
She seriously considered this, before something else registered to her; Sojukin was standing far too close to her. "You know, we need to have a discussion about personal space."
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